Day 16 Till I Die

 

Hello Love,

Nothing super special happened today.  Like usual, I wrote some articles, watched a movie to review, and played some games.  Just the usual workday routine.

Today, I cooked meatballs with carrots, green beans, and bok choy. It was delicious!  You know, cooking for yourself is really nice.

In the past, I always put other people first.  I tried to be a better cook, and I worked so hard to make dishes he liked.  I hoped for some appreciation, maybe just a "thank you," or if the food wasn't good, just a simple comment. But, I never got it. All I got was, "You know I don't like this kind of food. Don't ever make it again."

I always held myself back.  Sometimes I'd try something I didn't like or wouldn't eat something I loved, just because of him.  You know, thinking back, I was so foolish.  Why did I deserve that?

Now, I try to cook whatever I want.  I do everything I love.  I'm working on taking care of myself too.  Loving yourself isn't easy, but we can do it!

My mom called me this morning. We talked about a lot of things.  She told me about her doctor's appointment and more.  At the end of the call, she started crying.  I felt guilty.  I know she still worries about me, being alone in another city, uncertain about the future.

To clear my head, I worked out at noon by cycling for 90 minutes straight.  I watched some Youtube content while I was riding.  I learned a few things from the videos.

Oh Love, I found a restaurant that sells "sambal nanas."  I've never found one in Bogor that sells it.  I really love it.  It brings back memories from my childhood.  My mom used to make it, and also "sambal mangga."  It's so delicious.

Actually, I had something in mind today, but I forgot what it was.  Haha.  So I can't tell you.

Hope you have a beautiful day, Love.  See you tomorrow.

 

(Uwiepuspita)

 


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