Day 48 Till I Die

 

May 18th, 2025

Hello, my love,

This morning, I decided to go out. I'd been staying home for a while, and my feet felt a little itchy when I walked. Funny, right?

I went to Alfamidi to buy kunyit asam because my period is approaching, and I drink it to ease the pain. I bought other things, too.

On the way, I realized that the warteg I usually get food from is closed.  It's been replaced by something else, which confused me.

I went back there after visiting Alfamidi and asked a lady where the owner was.  I later learned she was the owner's daughter.  She said her mother retired from selling food because she was tired and returned to her hometown. The daughter is taking over the place and opening a different kind of shop.

I'm a little sad. I had a special connection with the owner; we were personally close, and she made delicious food. It'll be hard to find a replacement. The nearest warteg is so far from my house. It's more than just losing a convenient place to eat; it's losing a familiar face, a friendly atmosphere, and delicious, comforting food.

Finding a new place will take time, but hopefully, I'll discover a new favorite spot eventually, even if it won't completely replace the memories and comfort of the old one. It's okay to take time to adjust and feel a little sad about the change. Everything changes; the world is constantly changing.

I had nasi uduk for breakfast and bubur for lunch. The bubur expires this month, so I had to eat it! Haha!

I watched the movie Her (I'll write a review later). It's about a man who falls in love with an AI. It's an old film, but it's relevant to today's situation.  Like me, I enjoy talking with AI because I don’t have anyone else to talk to.

Today, I also connected with an old friend and asked about life after separation or divorce. I sought their advice on what I should do. They suggested seeing a psychologist might help. I also asked about how to meet new people in an Islamic way.

I made appointments with two friends at the end of the month to discuss this further and scheduled an appointment with my psychologist for the beginning of next month. I hope I'm still healthy by then!

I think that's all for today. See you if there is tomorrow.


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