May
20th, 2025
Hello,
my love, it's me again.
This
morning, I felt exhausted and decided to sleep in after Subuh prayer. I know it
wasn't ideal, but I needed more rest after yesterday.
I
woke up at 9 a.m., drank some soursop juice and jamu kunyit for breakfast, and
then started work. I needed to watch a movie to write a review.
Besides
watching the movie, I downloaded some ebooks from a website. I had a long list to download, and it took me
until noon.
I
had noodles with two eggs for lunch. It wasn't bad, but not delicious—I think I
overcooked them.
The
movie was about a drug addict. In one
scene, the main character tells her story to a group of students, explaining
how she got deeper into addiction. One
student simply said, "Just don't do it."
That
scene made me realize how easily people offer unsolicited advice about how we
should live our lives. When we share our struggles and explain why things
aren't easy for us, they often dismiss it as an excuse. They can easily say
that because they haven't walked in our shoes.
It's
evening, and I still need to write the movie review and study Japanese because
today's my last day of access. I also canceled my appointment with my friend
for the end of the month because I don't feel ready to discuss the topic (which
I can't share with you).
I
know I've been canceling a lot of appointments lately. It's a big problem for
me, and I'm trying to address it. I hope
I can improve and heal from whatever trauma I'm experiencing.
That's
all for today. See you again if there is tomorrow.
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