Love,
I started my day by randomly recording a song because I thought my voice had healed. So, I just took another shot at the song I had recorded before. Haha.
After that, I cooked spaghetti with Chinese cabbage and tomato. Don’t ask me about this weird combination, but it was delicious. I ate it for lunch. For dinner, I had some satay with rice. I didn’t make a shake today.
I didn’t write an article; I just played games and watched a movie. Did I take a nap? I don’t think so.
My mental state today wasn’t good. Do you know about DPR IAN? He gave his other persona a name. The side when he’s too happy is Mr. Insanity, and the one when he’s too sad is Mito. I love him. But then I thought, which side am I? And then I looked at myself— which side do people like? Or which persona do I like myself?
I learned about four distinct personality types, or temperaments, when I was in high school. I always had a half-and-half dominant personality—Melancholy and Choleric. It can switch depending on the situation and the people around me, making me either too ambitious or too low at different times.
I also took an MBTI test, where I got a similar split between INTJ and INFJ. These are somewhat like the Choleric and Melancholy temperaments. After everything that’s happened to me recently and how I reacted, I really want to "kill" my Melancholy side. But then I realized I don’t want to put myself into one circle—I just want to be the best version of me.
The reason I want to choose one personality is because of the saying, “Fake it till you make it.” I really want to fake my personality until I make it. But is that a good thing?
So yeah, my brain is just too busy thinking. I think I overshared with someone today, and now I regret it. The people-pleaser side of me is still my weakness.
That’s all for today. Very random, right? See you again tomorrow if there is one.
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